is is wrong that i am so happy to have a few days off? yes, i have a job that i love… i feel so happy going to work (most days) but i am so relaxed already home all of one hour and under my covers (keithy is out with my cousins’ husbands and my brother in law). i feel like i will have some time to just chill this weekend (no batmitzvahs!) and i feel like it need it. that said, of course, i will be checking the show email so feel free to email me/us firstname.lastname@example.org and be sure to listen to the whatever with alexis and jennifer marathon! (times are listed on our homepage)….
my sister stacy showed me a dvd (made from a video) from 14 years ago that my parents made for me… it was made right after my brother and sister had both gotten married and i was feeling crappy because i was going through a "i’m a total loser dork phase"- i didn’t have a boyfriend (had pretty much just been dumped by someone) and couldn’t figure out what i wanted to do with my life.. i was in law school but had no ambition to practice law, i was living at home after having lived away during college, i toyed with the idea of acting but was too insecure to really go for that and my parents must have sensed my feeling like poop because they made a video montage of my life up until that point (i was 22) to show me how much they loved me and that they thought i was terrific.
looking back, i cannot believe i was so insecure- i was adorable, i was witty, i was social, i was funny, i had a whole future ahead of me that i couldn’t appreciate at all! i was so caught up in trying to figure out who i was supposed to be that i couldn’t appreciate who i was… looking back i think i missed out on a lot of fun because i was so worried about my future…
seeing that video reminds me today to appreciate what i have and try live each day to its fullest even when i feel like a loser (we all have those days) because time will pass and i will think about now and realize how great all of it is…
i appreciate my parents’ making that video for me much more now than i did then.
so on this evening before thanksgiving here are a few things i am thankful for (get out the buckets to catch your vomit it’s going to be sappy!)
i am thankful that i have my kids and my keithy and my sister and brother and nieces and nephews and my parents and my inlaws of all kinds and my cousins and my friends etc…. (by now you must be at least nauseated.)
i am thankful that i have had this past year of doing our show… plus i have learned so much from alexis and martha! and i am thankful for that too… (have you puked yet?)
i am thankful that we have amazing listeners who keep coming back for more… i feel incredibly touched by your interaction with alexis and me… (ok, stop vomiting, i am having a moment or two!)
i am thankful to be alive. (ok now i’m throwing up too but i mean it!)
of course, after seeing that video from 14 years ago, all i want to do is find all my old videos- my brother’s barmitzvah (i was 9), my sister’s sweet sixteen, my sweet sixteen, my old school plays, blah blah blah, etc. etc. so tomorrow, instead of really just relaxing and enjoying thanksgiving, i will be scouring my parents’ house for these tapes and my own attic as well…i hope i find them.
keithy just got home from dinner.
happy thanksgiving everyone!!!!!