when i was 25 years old i decided i wanted to be a voice over artist… i wanted my voice to be the one everyone heard when they watched tv and saw a commercial for tampons or diapers or make-up or herpes medication or any other product that required a female voice over in its ad. i wanted to voice any/all disney animated characters- the role of ariel in disney’s the little mermaid was my dream gig. i wanted to be the voice of a nickelodeon superstar (think spongebob).
so i made two demo tapes (at the time they were actually cassettes- how crazy is that!) one was a singing demo (for animation and jingles) and one was a speaking demo (for commercials). i sent out the singing demo first to people way high up in the animation music business and got a favorable response – even the legendary producer david foster told me i have a “great voice”….if you think i’m boasting- let me assure you i am not because even after being told i have a “great voice” by someone so accomplished I STILL COULDN’T GET HIRED! and that’s the industry…you are so “great”! you are so “talented”! you are so “on your way”. it is all such “BULLSHIT”.
then i sent out my speaking demo… i got “signed” by a very fancy voice over agency at the time (j. michael bloom)- look them up- they are now defunct! i remember the day i got the call that they wanted to sign me exclusively, which meant they were the only agency that could send me out on auditions, i felt like a million bucks… like my future was about to start…like i was going to get job upon job upon job. in one year they sent me on exactly 4 auditions. only FOUR AUDITIONS. i booked none. zero. zilch. zed.
after that one year i got the (expected) phone call from my agent that i was not going to have my contract renewed… the agency was dropping me. i was a loser. ok she didn’t call me a loser but the message was clear. i cried (of course), and moved on. one week later i found out i was pregnant with my son.
i rationalized that my being dropped from the agency was kismit, beschert, i was meant to focus on my pregnancy and ready myself for motherhood (whatever)…so that’s what i did. i spent the next 6 years as a stay at home mom. i managed to pass the bar exam during that time, and i had a brief stint working as a lawyer a few hours a day but really i was home…and happy. but although i was happy, i still thought about the career i didn’t yet or wouldn’t ever have.
then i ran into an old friend (morgan) who’s business partner happened to be the top commercial casting director in nyc… beth melsky. she agreed to listen to my very old demo and tell me whether i had the potential to do voice overs- she said i did, hooked me up with a new (better) agent who actually sent me on auditions… i booked only one (a line in an espn promo) but it was enough to make feel like i had potential. really beth was enough to make me feel like i had potential and i think because she believed in me, i started to believe in myself.
about two years later i met alexis who asked me to develop/do this show with her (thanks alexis)..and here we are.
i love doing the radio show (so much!) but i still go on auditions (whenever i’m called and time permits) because i still fantasize about being the voice for tampax or johnson and johnson or clairol or bayer etc… and i still dream of voicing an animated character one day too…one day.
here are pictures from my most recent audition for johnson and johnson which i did not book (duh).
the board that tells what room the audition is in.