we are going to my sister in law's mother's house (brian's wife amy's mom) for thanksgiving.
i know i should bake something to bring to her house, but i don't feel like it. flame away what you want... i am selfish, not thoughtful, need to get over it, looking for sympathy, whatever you want to say. but fact is, i am not interested in baking for a holiday that feels like nothing more than a reason to cry. and in terms of sympathy, i have had all the sympathy i could use. not looking for it, just saying what i'm feeling. maybe others are going through the same thing and in some way my talking about it will make them feel less alone.
yeah, yeah. i know, it is THANKSgiving. and yeah i am giving thanks for all the good that i have- and there is plenty. PLENTY. and i am well aware that i have more than many and many have it worse than i. but that doesnt change the horrible blue feeling i am carrying everywhere i go this week. i may be a 38 year old woman but i miss my mother and when i think of her i feel like a lonely kid.
should i pretend it isn't that way?
i am taking my sister stacy to rosie live! tomorrow night. i think it will be the laugh that we need.
and if you get a chance, tune into nightline this evening on abc (or dvr it). supposedly alexis and i will be on.
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