it is a strange feeling leading up to my 39th birthday knowing my mom won’t be calling me that day.
i’ll get through it, and yes, i know i am lucky and blessed that i have family and friends who love me and want me to have a good day inspite of the loss.
but here’s the thing…
i really want to hear my mom’s voice say "jenn… happy birthday honey."
i’m pathetic right? (don’t answer that!)
i know the big cake bake off between alexis and johnny iuzzini on friday will be fun. and saturday night there will be a birthday dinner. and i’m sure i will get gifts and smile and laugh and have fun and feel sad and cry and live.
exactly as my mom would want me to. gotta have/celebrate my birthday because, really, what’s the alternative?!
and if you want to see some beautiful pictures of my mom from when she was young, check out the photos on my facebook page (my sister has been scanning pictures and tagging the ones with my mom).
and if you don’t have facebook, here is one of my mom and my sister, stacy from 1968. (i was born 1970)
facebook: jennifer koppelman hutt