a year has gone by since my mother died.
frozen in time as a beautiful 65 year old woman ravaged by pancreatic cancer.
still so unfair.
still so sad.
and yet i smile thinking of her because i know she’d want that. and i smile thinking of her because i know she’d be proud of how i’ve continued to live inspite of the just below the surface sadness that lingers. and i smile because i know just how she’d react in any situation i am in.
i smile because i can hear her voice within me.
and then, of course, i cry because she shouldn’t have died so young.
my mother was a piece of work. she was wacky. and hilarious. and nuts. and gorgeous. and loving.
and i miss her.
i mentioned in a blog earlier this month that we are walking in her honor july 26th 2009. if you can contribute in any way…fantastic…click here.
if not, ok. no pressure.
into year two i go.
mothering my children, mothering myself.
a day at a time…healing.
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