as i wrote in my blog last night:
"i was a fan of patrick swayze. i loved dirty dancing.
i didn’t kill him.
i feel sad for his family and friends…ofcourse.
but i am human and prone to good/bad/complicated feelings.
aren’t we all?"
and this vitriol about my being a terrible person for having some dark not so warm and fuzzy feelings?! fair enough i guess…it is what YOU are feeling.
last night i chose to share. i chose to be open and honest about MY reaction to patrick swayze’s death. and my reaction was one that was impacted by my experience with my mother’s pancreatic cancer.
that said, of course i am not HAPPY that he died and suffered- this cancer is disgusting and sad and gross. nor am i HAPPY about all the mothers, fathers, children, brothers, sisters, husbands, wives, soldiers, girlfriends, boyfriends, etc who’ve died too soon.
nor do i think my sadness is ANY greater than anyone else’s…this just happens to be MY blog where i post what i’m thinking, feeling, doing etc.
and to those who think i should get over the loss of my mom…i’m doing ok.
better than i was months ago…not as good as ill be months from now.
clearly i’ve hit a nerve with many of you…and that’s ok.
but i don’t apologize for sharing. in fact, maybe my admitting the icky feelings allows others who may have them as well- about anything…feel less alone.
i do send my condolences to anyone who knew and loved patrick swayze.
i never met him but he seemed like a lovely man.
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