Tomorrow is the 5th Mother's Day without my mom. I hate this day.
In my mom's honor, here is an excerpt from the speech I gave at the JHE event last week.
I had this really cool radio show on siriusxm called whatever with alexis and jennifer, I was getting control of my body- probably because i was feeling happier and fulfilled.
Then my mother got sick and my whole existence changed.
During this time, I let my guard down and learned to be vulnerable. or was forced to be vulnerable. not sure which. But anyway,
Fall of 2007 my mom was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer.
And for 9 mos, my sister and I would take my mom to her treatments, be with her after, take care of our kids and husbands, and in between all of this I would go to nyc and do my radio show and then shoot my first tv show.
My mom’s name was Bunny or Mommy. She was spectacular, super smart, gorgeous, funny, warm, crazy, demanding, unrelenting, naughty, fiercely loyal and fabulous. I loved her so much.From as early as I can remember my mom believed in my potential to do something great. Now her version of great was maybe my being able to wear a bikini without a sarong (never going to happen!)
She also thought i could be a judge. Or a doctor. Or president. She had total faith in my brain capacity and personality, little faith in my ability to regulate my body weight.There was not a single move i made that I wasn't searching and wanting her approval.My mom was of course the most loving mom mom to my kids, and mother in law to my husband. My mom was my foundation. She was my judge and jury. She was my biggest fan. She was my biggest critic. She was the start of every day for me at 7am when she’d call my house and ask what i was doing...(what do you think im doing it is 7am!!!) She was the one I'd talk to most throughout the day." My mom died July 8, 2008.
And although she isn't actually here anymore, I am reminded of her each time I catch a glimpse of myself on TV.
THANK YOU MOMMY because your influence and impact continues to show through every over the top facial expression I make. They come from you. And I am so grateful because I think they make people smile. Just like you did.
I miss you.Tomorrow is the 5th Mother's Day without my mom. I hate this day.