I Want To Be Wild

I love my life as much as the next middle-aged-happily-married-mother of two. I’ve got a great guy and awesome kids (complete with manageable issues).  I like my career,  and like most people, sometimes I wonder if having my career is even worth anything. I don’t want a different life. But I do fantasize about running…

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Almost Forty-Five.

The shriveling. That’s what I’m ruminating about today. Two days before I have the luxury of turning forty-five, while my exquisite friend Bari just passed away at forty-five, I’m focusing on the shriveling of my belly and what sometimes feels like the shriveling of my being. My body which holds too-many-to-count-can’t-recall-how-I-even-got-them-scars keeps surprising me with new nooks, crannies and…

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2015!

This year let’s listen to the positive voice in our heads instead of the negative one. This year let’s choose belief over disbelief. This year let’s get off our asses and try.  Really try. This year let’s say yes. And let’s say no when we really don’t want to say yes. This year let’s treat…

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25 Things I Learned From My Mother

6 years ago today my mom died. I’m trying to laugh today- instead of cry (not easy!) because my mom liked when we laughed. And she LOVED when we paid attention to her (sound familiar?!) 25 Things I learned from my mother 1. Cover soles of new shoes with scratch-less bottoms. Scuffed shoes look terrible…

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The Young Murderer In The BMW

Like all of us, I’m sick over this lonely, angry, mixed up, and horribly sad dead 22 year old murderer in the BMW. I watched one of his youtube rants yesterday. Was appropriately nauseated by it. Then I watched it again. Was even more nauseated by it. What a revolting, miserable, entitled, evil, awful and…

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The Fat Girl Episode

The fat girl episode Oh Louis CK. You had me at season one. And your recent SNL monologue was even smarter, funnier and edgier than I’d even hoped it would be. But your depth of understanding of the inner workings of the fat girl- as portrayed in a recent Louie episode… I’m yours for good….

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44.

  Stupid cancer.  This is the 6th Mother’s Day without my mom. I’m 44 years old. And I feel my mom’s absence even more now than I did a few years ago. I think it’s because I’m in my mid life (or her 3/4 life!)  and feel so much like I remember her to be….

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Ever Have A Panic Attack?!

My son was 10 minutes late to the car today after school. And the level of panic I felt was, well, definitely excessive and probably not normal. But I am sure so many of you have it too..right?! Please say yes!  When I have an actual panic attack- which thankfully isn’t THAT often, It’s like…

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FAT!

I hate myself today. HATE. The number on the scale in mexico is HIGH. My diet will begin tomorrow in Miami- we leave for there today. I’ve been away for a week. Ive been fat for the past three days of this week. I am mid month in my menstrual cycle – always a higher…

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