hi everyone!
thanks again for all the good thoughts, prayers, wishes etc. i love hearing everyone else’s stories…reaffirms what i already know which is i am so NOT alone.
that said, after a rough day in the hospital, i had only one thing to do…SWIM with my kids and keith on this rather somber father’s day.
and i’m not a bathing suit girl (as you know) but i got over it today (ok not really… i mean i slipped into the pool so damn fast)!
and here is me…i even wet my hair knowing full well the color will fade…but i don’t give a shit because i need to live in the moment!
here i am in the pool. couldnt open my eyes..too sunny.
i hope this picture makes you smile too (cause i look like bugs bunny!)…enough with the sadness for today…unfortunately there will be time for that!
xxx
jennifer
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You are a trooper! You must not let the negative things keep you from enjoying the simple things in life. Getting out and enjoying the sunshine and water was a great idea. Sending best wishes to you and yours.
I say, jump in naked, that way you CAN’T look bad in your bathing suit!! You look beautiful, now I think you are just fishing for compliments!! ;^)
You are a loving daughter, mother and wife…beautiful! I am sorry for what you and your family are going through.
Awww you look beautiful Jennifer!
Hope you had a great time. I hope I am lucky enough to have a wonderful husband, and kids like you!
Adorable. Glad you were able to get out and enjoy some time with Keith and your kids. Best wishes…
-Lisa
Jenny-You are surrounded by people who love you and love your mother. Continue to live and enjoy every moment you have surrounded by the people who love you and the people you love. You can then live your life with no regrets.
I so admire your courage. It is a blessing that you found your smile. I will pray for your Mom and family. My Rabbi once said ” You can’t always heal the body, but you can always heal the spirit” Your Mom needs to see your smile. (My Mom’s name is Bunny too 😉 I LOVE the picture you posted. It’s genuine and beautiful, and so are you…
we’re all passing through. if you’re lucky, you manage to affect a life or two for the better. bunny’s one of the lucky ones…she produced a beautiful, loving family. her legacy will live for generations. jenny, every morning you wake with a smile you’ll honor her, and she’ll be right beside you. all the strength…
LOVE IT!
One day at a time. That’s all anyone has. Glad you are living all the good and the bad fully. To do so is the highest honor you can give your parents, your husband, your kids and yourself. I hope all the laughs that you and Alexis have given to people return to you when you need it the most.
That’s exactly why we love you. All of us for all of this 😀
the picture made me smile because you look beautiful! you are not alone. life is precious and fragile and we all experience suffering. remember to breathe. you will get through it. thank you for sharing this part of your life with us. it helps me to live in the moment as well.
Happy to see you smiling again…
we’re here for you.. keep reaching out.. seriously..
You most definitely do not look like Bugs Bunny…you look like a teenager!
Nice to hear you took the afternoon and spent it with family…
Jennifer, I’m glad you were able to get out and have a little fun yesterday!! Good for you:) I hope your mom is doing better today.
You are naturally beautiful…..and look much younger than you really are. We love ya! Savor those moments of happiness.
I’m so happy to see your smiling face in this post. Warms my heart.
Your smile must be the best gift to your mom! I have been where you are. You are not alone, and will be ok.
xxxxooooo
You look radiant…you make your mom proud by being a good wife and mother you honor her!
You look adorable!! Every time you are feeling really down try to sit in the sun for a few minutes. Take care of yourself, we love you and are praying for your family.
Beautiful! Beautiful! Trust your family and friends, and all of us who love you!
After loosing many of the special people in my life, the lesson learned is this — you honor them by living fully and laughing out loud.
Your comment about living in the moment was great! Have you read “A New Earth” by Eckhart Tolle? I think it would be helpful to you now because its all about how the present moment is all that matters. It helps to keep things in perspective.
You are doing exactly what your mom would want you to do. My mom had Alzheimers for 10 years and I knew deep in my heart that all she ever wanted was for her children to be happy and that’s exactly what your mom wants for you. I will continue to keep you in my thoughts and in my prayers.
hi jennifer (and anyone else who has a recommendation for a dr or any type of therapeutic recommendation)…please send me either a facebook message with dr.’s names etc or email me @ whateverradio@gmail.com.
thank you. thank you. thank you.
your picture made me smile. sending you well wishes from california.
There you go-you did the right thing yesterday. I bet it felt really good to your body and soul. Great shot!
Jenny, it’s so good to see you smile. You are truly a great daughter and one of the most beautiful women I’ve ever had the pleasure of meeting. All my hugs and best ~~ Dedra
You look like a cute little kid! 🙂
When my grandmother was so ill in the hospital for 3 months and I was there 12-18hrs a day…..I had a 6yr old son and husband at home missing me….and me missing them and our moments together.
One day I left the hospital early, met them at my MIL’s house and the 3 of us got in the pool, our dog too….and played and splashed and it was such good medicine for my aching heart and soul at the time.
I had some guilt for leaving my grandmother…but my husband and son and I needed that time together too.
Make sure you make time for those kinds of moments as you go through this sad time.
Oh…and my grandma pulled through…still here 2 yrs later!
You do make me smile! 🙂
Best Wishes to you and yours Jennifer. You don’t look like Bugs Bunny, you have BEAUTIFUL teeth. I’m jealous.
Hi Jennifer, I am so sorry to hear about your Mother. Please know that my thoughts are with you and your family.
Beverly in NC
I love you living in the moment! You look great!
Well sad to say that I lost my sister ,she was 44 ,she had breast cancer and did not know it, so she did not get it treated till it was already too late.
You must have time for your family too so do nor feel bad for loving and spending time with them also…
I am sending a short note to your mommy…not a card
I could not find one for this situation that seemed good…
wording that is…
but again i wish you and your family the best..prayers also .
love to you both..
Linda
You are beautiful!
Try Care Pages http://www.carepages.com. (The hospital may have already told you about it) My Uncle had a sudden illness earlier this year; he was hospitalized for 3 months! Carepages was a godsend. It is a quick way to communicate with many people. You add a list of email contacts of family and friends you want to keep posted. You post updates about your mom (as often as you want w/ as much or as little info as you’d like.)When you post the site sends an alert to your contacts. Your friends/fam can read updates and post their own well wishes. It saved us from the telephone- we did less repeating and had fewer unnecessary calls. It was also great for keeping people who care, but who wouldn’t have called out of respect( b/c they didn’t want to bother us) informed. (I’m not suggesting you share w/ listeners, but it would be a great tool for your family)
I don’t believe in prayer or that crap but I do believe in the positive energy within us all. So, keep doing what you’re doing and you’ll find your way of dealing with all of the emotional lows. You can do it kid!
Hang in there Jen. BTW, you look like a little girl in that pic!
Look at those pearly whites! Glad to hear you are doing better.
Hi Jennifer –
I can totally relate to what you are probably feeling. My mother has matasticized breast cancer and the prognosis (as of Dec) is 6-18 months. I felt like I was kicked in the stomach and my world was collapsing. Like many women, I always was always dreaded the other shoe to drop, and now I can see the shoe. In that way I always thought you and I were very similar. It is such a horrible thing and I am so sorry to hear about Bunny! I have found comfort knowing that others have or are going through the same thing, small consolation that it is. Losing a mother can never be ok, regardless of age or circumstance. It’s a gut wretching thing. Enjoy all the time you have – as none of us never knows what tomorrow will hold. Best of luck to Bunny to pull through this set back and enjoy many more days! ((((HUG)))) My thoughts are with you and your family.
beautiful picture
Hi Jennifer,
Here is a blog you will enjoy. The author’s husband had pancreatic cancer and she started the blog as therapy. https://snickollet.blogspot.com/
I’ll be praying for your Mom & your whole family.
Susan
I think you look beautiful in that picture! – so natural.
Best wishes to you and your family during this difficult time.
Oh Jen the power of prayer!!!! It works.
Jennifer – you look gorgeous in that photo!
Ditto on the Care Pages website, it’s a great way to provide the same information to everyone at the same time. As a reader you can receive alerts when an update is posted. Also, people can send you messages through the website and make donations to the site. My friend’s husband set up a page for her when she was ill, it was a great resource.
More wishes & prayers to you and your family. Enjoy this time with your mom and family.
None of us are guaranteed any amount of time with someone, we should all be thankful for the precious time we are given. Wishing I could take some of the pain from you!
Jennifer, you bring so much joy into the lives of your family and others. Your Mom is so very fortunate to have such a wonderful daugher and you such a wonderful Mom – thougths are with you.
You’re picture did exactly what you intended to do……it made me smile right back at you kiddo……..
Spend time with your mom and enjoy every second! I hope she improves with each passing day. Wishing you and your family a lot of peace, strength and happiness.
How many times have we said, “I am going to kill my mother!!!”
We are allowed to kill them BUT they can NOT die on us–those are the rules.
I hear you and feel you and I hope and pray everyday for another FAVOR from above.
You are your mother’s daughter and I am so very proud to call you my friend.
great photo – prayers and best wishes to your entire family!
You should listen to that song “I Hope You Dance” It is uplifting. When My Mom was on life support and I was at the hospital all alone…well you just find this inner strength. Just try to take a moment for you…you won’t be any good to anyone if you don’t take that well deserved breath. Love & Light
Hi Jennifer,
I am a cancer survivor of 12 years and I am sending your mommy and your whole family lots of good energy all the way from California.
Hope to hear the smile in your voice again real soon,
Kathi
Jennifer, when I look at that photo, I can only think of one song I used to sing to my kids when they were little…You are my sunshine, my only sunshine…You are your mother’s sunshine right now. You are in our prayers.
Seeing your beautiful face truly touched me and reminded me of the feelings I went through in a similar situation…Fighting to find moments of joy & beauty during such a painful time. A new perspective will be found during this time because nothing else really matters but the love of your family & friends. So dive into their love & kindness just like you did the pool. My possitive thoughts are with you!
Jennifer,
Live Each Moment
Author Unknown
I may never see tomorrow, there is no written guarantee.
And things that happened yesterday, belong to history
I cannot predict the future, I cannot change the past
I have just the present moment, I must treat it as my last
I must use this moment wisely, for it will soon pass away
And be lost to me forever, as part of yesterday
I must exercise compassion, help the fallen to their feet.
Be a friend unto the friendless, make an empty life complete
The unkind things I do today, may never be undone
And friendships that I fail to win, may never more be won
I may not have another chance on bended knee to pray
And thank God with humble heart, for giving me this day
Jennifer, to heck with what other people think of you. To heck with what you look like in a bathing suit, without your makeup, and with fading hair color – your personality is so beautiful it over rides everything else.
Jump in to the pool with your kids, just like you should jump in to life. Give them the memory that their mother was never afraid to have fun and be beautiful and fancy free. Sorry for the long post…
My Father died suddenly 7 years ago. I felt as though my heart broke in half(seriously). Whatever happens you will get through it. I didn’t think I could but I did:-)
Prayers are going out for you,your Mom and your family all the way from Oklahoma:-)
Jen, listen. Get your mom to the best hospital. They have so many new treatments available. Again, my thoughts and prayers are with you. My god, NOTHING is worse than pan can.
there is this great book called “when bad things happen to good people”. It’s WONDERFUL and could help you.
Jennifer-I am in the been there, done it category, my mom died of breast cancer 20 years ago, she was 52, I was 29. To do this day, I miss her every single day. The place I finally got to is this: No one ever promised I would have her forever but damn it, I was not done yet! Enjoy every single minute with your mom, take a leave of absence from work, stay with her, play with your kids
, I promise you won’t have any regrets. Love, prayers, positive thoughts to you, your mom and your family.
Jennifer, Just read your blog and my heart goes out to you and your wonderful family. You’ll be in my thoughts and prayers in the coming days. XO
great smile – still praying for all of you – so glad you have Keith GOD Bless Your Family!
Jennifer, I’m so sorry you’re so sad. My mother passsed on 2/22/08, very sad day. My prayers, thoughts, & love are with you.