oh, i don’t know… could it be that maybe this time of year is a bit depressing for me…and as such, it has been difficult for me to blog?
holidays still hit hard. holiday season still so strange without my mother.
still not at all festive.
will try in december to do more here- add some video blogs, photos, etc.
way conscious of not writing too many bunny posts…bc why should everyone else be brought down?!
and relax people, i am COMPLETELY thankful for what i do have.
know i’ve got blessings a plenty. and the people in my life know how much they matter. and my kids are doing great!
hope your thanksgiving were terrific.
i am so happy thanksgiving 2009 is OVER.
xxx
jennifer
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I feel for you. I’ve been exactly where you are. Just make sure that you are making plenty of happy memories for your kids to remember about their holidays. They don’t have their grandmother but they have you and isn’t family what the holidays are really all about.
I agree with you 100%
Sorry to hear you are struggling, Jennifer…Hope your spirits are lifted soon. I am thankful for the free sirius and whatever marathon, was great to finally hear the show.
Jennifer, you don’t OWE us anything. Most readers are grateful that you take time out of your busy schedule to let us in from time to time. Gee, you only have two children, a job, etc. To those who complain, maybe you need to find something else besides the Whatever blogs to make you day.
i get it
Hi Jennifer,
I know how you feel. The holidays can be strange without those that you love that can no longer be here to share them with us. You don’t owe anyone an explanation. When you feel like posting do so. You are right you are blessed with wonderful friends and family that love you. Have a happy holiday season.
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hi, your grief and sadness are totally understandable jennifer. you are very entertaining both on radio and tv, thanks for giving me some daily laughs.
happiness to you.
Jenn, I for one, LOVE hearing about Bunny! I adore how you articulate your feelings and hearing about what a kind compassionate, caring person Bunny was. I will ALWAYS remember the story about “the shoes!” Feelings are MEANT to be shared. Talk, type, write, text, tweet…just keep Bunny’s memory alive.
Holiday’s are difficult and I can relate to your sadness. Just know MOST people care. G-d Bless — you taught me THAT. G-d, and I appreciate the things I pick up from you and Alexis.
Happy Holidays to you and yours!
I’m sorry to read you are still grieving the loss of your Mom as I 10 yrs ago lost my brother Todd and am also still grieving his loss. I hate to say it Jennifer but what you are experiencing is still grief and you will forever. It may get easier but how I dont know. I wish I knew so I could enjoy the Holidays but I still can’t. All the best to you. You are in no way weak but only human with a very sad heart right now….Amy
You keep going girl..We love ya!
hey jennifer my heart goes out to you, but look over at that other blog and take care of your buddy. Paul did a great job on picking out the best of for black Friday. On a serious note you will have a better tomorrow, and a better year. Your Mother would not like you grieving like this, Stop it, Everyone, almost everyone on this earth has suffered your pain, It will get better..
I know how you feel. I am so happy Thanksgiving is over. Now I just need to get through the rest of the year with a partial smile on my face. Missing my dad sooooo much. I don’t feel like being festive. Yet I will for my children’s sake. Life marches on..meanwhile I do it crying. It’s YOUR blog Jennifer…and your feelings. Don’t let the jerks out there dictate what you can or cannot write. I want to hear about your mom….because I can relate.
You know, I lost my mother to cancer, too. My first holiday season without her (only three months after she died), I was recovering from a kidney transplant. So that, along with the grieving was very hard. My mother and I were very close. She was only 20 years older than me and she said I was her best friend. I think, though, that it was and is a blessing I don’t have a blog. I honestly think having a blog to “indulge” all your feelings is not the best thing for you. Holidays have NEVER been the same without my mother. But when I put up the Christmas tree, I think of her because it’s what she loved to do and I think of her with every ornament I put on the tree. Blogging isn’t going to help. Passing on what you got from your mother to your kids and your family keeps her alive and honors her memory. You’ll get more from that than talking about how hard everything is.
Jennifer….do not worry about others negativity. Some people are not happy unless they can say ugly things. My Father passed in a car accident 10 years ago in Dec. and it still hurts and I still cry. Who does not like it can look another direction, he was my Dad and this is my pain. Stay strong young lady…feel the love!
I think it’s lovely that you talk about your mom. No one knows what your grief is like, except you.
I LOVE hearing about your mother. Whenever you mention her in the photos posted of her towards the end and it brings a smile to my face. She seemed like a real fun, involved, and over the top mom. What could be better? I will tell you one thing that I do think about is your father…my husband and I have been together 12 years and I would hate to loose him. For your father the loss must hit him ALL THE TIME. Please be sure and give him lots of hugs.
I say FUCK EM! Fuck em all and if they need to hear more from you now well fuck em. there was life before whatever and there will be life after. let them re read the re runs.
I am also very thankful for this year’s Thanksgiving to be over. It was a fabulous one, after all the stress…but there was still all that stress!
It will get easier with time, and screw the people that try to give you crap about “bringing everyone down”. This isn’t our blog, it’s yours. If someone doesn’t like it, they don’t have to read it.
Hope your holidays get better 🙂
You’re boring. I like Alexis’ blog better.
<3 Love Your Video Blogs <3
i have a different grief… my mother is alive but living with severe dementia. this began when she was 65years old..now 71..she no longer recognizes her children or grandchildren and we go through happy times without her.. feeling guilty for wishing that she were in a better place and that we could remember her as she was
Jennifer, 99% of us read your blog, because we are fans. Your grief and how you feel about Bunny is such an important part of who you are. Dont worry about the blog. We’re a pretty loyal bunch and will keep popping in to read and support you! and on a particularly australian note – just delete any dickheads who leave crap comments.
Jennifer, you have a right to your grief, and you do not have to follow anyone’s “timetable” as to your feelings.
Your feelings are valid, and real, and others need to respect that. (I’m looking at YOU, certain fellow blog readers…) Judgement-free, you are in my thoughts.
Aw jenny!
ignore the Haters….
we all get depressed this time of year..i am right now:(
Well…..post something interesting and uplifting instead of dumb shit and total downers!!
Just wanted to send a hug.
Although I look forward to reading your post, I can relate I lost both of my parents this year. I am so over this year and am not into the holiday thing at all, I can feel your pain and don’t know how I get along each day with mine.
Grieve freely….it’s the only way to cope with a tragic loss…I know…I lost my husband after a 5 year battle with cancer…grieving is therapy…..you’ll get through it. There’s just no one like your mom.
Oh Jennifer, we, all your TRUE fans / friends understand, love you and need NO explanation! Never feel like you need to explain yourself. We will wait to read whatever and whenever you blog again. I have not gone through such a painful loss and feel too depressed at times to blog just from LIFE. Be kind and patient with yourself. Take your time, we are here when you are ready.
I know what you mean about Holidays not being the same without certain loved ones! I lost my grandmother this past year, I cannot imagine losing my mother. My Grandmother was always the festive Holiday one. So during the Holidays it is extremely hard and very depressing. I just try to do what I remember she would and carry on the traditions.
PS: I LOVE YOUR SHOW ON TV AND SIRIUS!
I just lost my Mom November 5, 2009. I saw the comment about your Mother’s loss…. I listen to your show as I drive home from work each day. Often I would say Hello/cell phone, to my Mom and just tell her I was heading home after work. The several days after she died I tried to call in, it was very close to the end of your show, Michael was very nice saying your show had ended and I was unable to speak to you with your discussion on mamograms etc. My Mom died of ovarian cancer, if we would have known more about of this disease….of which so many women die of ….with very little warning. My thoughts with you….. Thanks for listening….as I will continue to listen… each day as I travel home from work. Deborah
I think if your blog had more pics of what you’re doing from day to day it would be more fun and you wouldn’t get so many complaints. You treat your blog like a diary, and your diary should be private just for you.
Bravo Jen!
F*** them! If it makes YOU feel better to write about your mother then do it.
It must suck to get negative feedback from “fans” but do it if it makes you feel better and ignore the negativity.
This is YOUR blog..not ours!
I know you’re thankful for what you have but what you lost is more than most of us can imagine.
awww, wish i could give you a big hug.
Don’t be self-conscious/defensive with your decisions about what to post. It’s nice that you talk about your mother, and everyone knows variance in how people grieve doesn’t amount to “having issues.” It’s just that some people like to lie about whether your blog items are problematic, because it gives them an opportunity to indulge their malice in a way they think is acceptable and relevant. Trying to adjust to that insanity wouldn’t be good.
Jennifer I understand completely. My mother passed away Feb 2nd this year and this is the year of firsts for all of us. It didn’t help that my mother’s birthday was thanksgiving but we made it through and I know somewhere she is watching over us. Hugs to you and keep up the faith! Thanks for everything you do for all of us even in a small way, it makes a difference to be able to smile a bit….
Hi Jennifer.
My Mom died very suddenly of a heart attack 5 years ago. She was only 48. I was 24. Christmas, holidays and milestones are always hard. It does get better with time. You need to give yourself TIME. I remember dreading the first Christmas without my mother, but I’m at a point where I look forward to the holidays. It comes with time.
Don’t feel that you should be “over it.” Some people try to push too hard and say that you should be moving on. It takes nine months for a life to come into the world, all of a sudden when someone leaves we are expected to just “get over it.” All things beautiful come in multiples..great friends, sunsets, flowers.etc. But we only have ONE Mother. Mothers are a huge part of our lives and when they are gone, they leave a void that is hard to fill. I don’t think that void is ever filled, I just learned how to live with the void. Time will help you Jennifer…
Thinking of you..
I don’t know about “the rest of you,” but every time I read Ms Elso’s comments I hear Martha’s voice in my head. Yes, I AM nuts, thank you, and there are hundreds more voices, but it’s funny that I hear Martha’s voice when I read Ms Elso comments. I also hear Rosie’s voice when I read, I can’t remember the name, comments. It just happens — I don’t know if it’s the way the sentence is constructed that rings a bell but…I’m just saying. I also hear Alexis and Jenn’s voice as I read their words. Do you? Okay.
I would really love to see more photos of Bunny. Old photos from holidays past would be nice.
It’s your blog and if you want to “bunny blog” you go right ahead.
Anyone who acts like their holiday is perfect is full of crap. You were obviously very close to your mom. Holidays seem to make everything that is lacking worse.
My mom died last october of cancer and I was just thinking about how the holiday are so sad without her. Thanks for reminding me I am not alone.
You do a great job at teaching questioning. Little Crazy sometimes, maybe, but it’s two ladies talking .. come on, and for a gay man it’s like a long lunch with drinks, yummy
Please do NOT think you are alone. After my mother passed, it took years for me to enjoy the Holidays again. We were the ‘elves’ for our entire family, the only ones who LOVED the Holidays. We spent hours together planning every detail and decorating. After she was gone, and I was alone, it was almost too much to bear. I knew I had blessings, that there was still much to enjoy, but the loss I felt was still overwhelming. Eventually it will pass. Eventually you will move on. Eventually you will have joy at the Holidays again. It just takes time. Do not feel bad, do not feel guilty. You have all my love and support.
Holidays suck. Let’s skip all of the crap. Good luck, Jennifer.
ef you…nasty biotch…you must be very miserable to post such a nasty comment..hater!!
I tip my hat to you. You don’t have to blog anything at all about your personal life, your feelings, pix of your family, etc. It’s a bitch doing everything else we have to get done in a day. At the end of the day, nothing anyone says here matters at all. Putting yourseld out here and getting “bopped” in the nose for it take alot of moxy. Your family and friends will get you through the rough times, even though it sucks….bad! I’ll betcha a sawbuck you’ll feel alot better about everything by springtime. Thanks for posting, I have to admit, I like reading what you and Alexis have to say, and your show is hysterical. I tell everyone to check it out, if they have the chance. I wish you continued success and I know, from experience, this to shall pass. 🙂