two summers ago, after acknowledging the first anniversary of our mom’s death, my sister declared it was the summer of “yes”! and we were to say yes to anything and everything…(resist the urge to take this to a sexual place although after writing that last sentence… i went there too!)… and that summer, 2009, was UNBELIEVABLY difficult. the yesses didn’t lead to so much fun. some fun, sure! but all fun.. no way! it was a let down.
i found being compelled to say yes constantly caused me lots of (extra) stress…manifesting in my worst panic attack i’ve ever had. (oh goodie, there’s always the opportunity for another!)
i don’t do well with (added) pressure to be happy/live/do/thrive/succeed/enjoy/etc.
so this summer, 2011, i am declaring the summer of “maybe”… maybe i’ll go out a bit. maybe ill eat healthfully. maybe i’ll eat pizza. maybe i’ll embrace all the professional changes around me. maybe i’ll laugh a lot. maybe i’ll make new friends. maybe i’ll start to bake again. maybe i will blog my food intake daily (see daily food blog). maybe i’ll judge myself less. maybe i’ll judge others less. maybe i’ll be nicer. maybe i will have a good time.
maybe i won’t be concerned with outcomes for a while and maybe i will just live a day at a time. really. doing my best along with everyone else who’s doing their best.
maybe i will find a way to go to sleep at a reasonable hour. and maybe i will stay asleep for a reasonable amount of time.
i like this idea. summer of “maybe”.
what kind of summer are you having?
ps: another tales from the treadmill:
httpv://youtu.be/ihkspwaJCyU
xo
jenny
well I wish I had your ambition tonight! I ate a funnel cake but I dont feel like walking this late! So I guess I will have to do longer tomorrow!! 🙂
yummmmm… you dont want my “ambition”! i am nutty. i need to mellow out.. haha.
I like your idea of a summer of “maybe”. It sounds flexible, reasonable, thoughtful, deliberate and a little kinder to yourself. Now is an especially good time to be kind to yourself. I quit my emotionally toxic job (without another job to go to!) and am trusting that my skills and networking will land me my next job. I have decided this is the summer of “possibility” for me. We might possibly become parents through adoption in the next month. I might possibly land a new job: in an office or as a Mom. I might possibly be the happiest I’ve ever been (being with a supportive husband also helps; so does being at a friend’s cottage for the last week). I am glad to have you to tune into everyday! You’re pretty real, Radio Jenny!
I can’t believe how long ago I started listening. Keep up the good work. I’ve been back at WW for 4 mos and joined Curves. I went to the mountains here in AZ for our anniversary last weekend and needless to say I didn’t track. I did do some heavy duty mountain biking so I got a lot of activity points. Tomorrow will be my fourth workout this week then I weigh in. Hopefully it’s positive.
good luck!!!
Love it!
Good job Jenny. You are so beautiful and I love hearing about your ups and downs. You inspire so many!!! xoxo
and YOU are soooo nice!!! xo.
Hi Jenn, I understand how much you miss your mom.. I found mymother dead 18 years ago she was only 58 and I wish I could have just one more day with her. I am now 54 and i have 5 grandchildren and every day I make a memory with them. I want them to have a lifetime of memories of me with them so they won’t have any regets. It is the most fun I have everyday just ask my 11 yr old grandaughter..I sure can embarass her in public with my dancing and sing
ing but she really does love it.
Hey Deb..just read your post and love what you said. We just found out my mom has brain cancer. She’s only 60. I didn’t have a great relationship with her until after I had my kids and always encouraged she and my kids to bond so they would have great memories of their grandma, regardless of our relationship. Now they go over just to hang out with her. I’m so glad they will always have such positive memories of her. Keep building up yours with your grandkids!
I love this. The summer of maybe sounds like a very loving way to treat ourselves. No pressure, but open.
I think this will be my summer of maybe as well!