they are on! well not this very instant because as many of you already know (and enjoy the tidbit of new information those of you who don’t)- i don’t wear panties to bed. and right this very minute i am in my bed. wallowing. yup. i’m wallowing. and unfortunately i am not enjoying this pity party ive managed to throw for myself today.
mostly because i don’t have time for it. and
also because i am well aware how ridiculous (and indulgent!) it is that i am feeling any self pity.
yet i am feeling it. i am angry. and bitter. and irritated. and frustrated. and stuck. and sad.
and all because i am being FORCED to change. and i am not so gifted as to embrace change willingly.
oh sure. i will figure it out. and i will get less agitated. and i will put forth action and intent as i usually do.
and i will end up on the other side of (what feels to me like) adversity.
but i will stomp, scream and cry my way there. just how i am wired. deal with it. or don’t. i’m too tired to care.
i have been a devoted wife for close to 15 years. i’ve been a flawed but loving mommy for 13 years.
i entered both of those roles with excitement and little doubt. and i feel incredibly lucky to be saddled with MY little family.
but i was so lost 7 years ago.
staying home with my kids wasn’t enough for me.
and being a lawyer didn’t satisfy me.
becoming an entertainer saved me.
almost 7 years ago i got a job. and out of that job i got a radio show. and out of that radio show i got a life. and out of that life, i got a self.
and all of that feels threatened right now.
THIS radio show ive been doing is coming to an end shortly.
nothing but freedom and new opportunities lie ahead.
i’m cautiously optimistic i will be given the opportunity to broadcast and entertain elsewhere on siriusxm.
but in a way it is like starting over again.
and i am hoping in another little while i will be an overnight success.
i have LOVED LOVED LOVED doing my show and connecting with all of you.
and i thank each and every one of you who has cared enough to listen during the past 6 years.
xo
jenny
You are still you. You took being a wife, a mommy and a lawyer into your role as an entertainer. Whatever form your next forum takes, you will be an evolving composite of your life’s experiences. You will be even more than before, and hopefully, better.
forget the big girl panties and go for something silky and sexy! You have held your head high and shown great dignity.. for that you will be better then ok!
Jenny,
I completely empathize with what you are feeling. While it may sound trite, and while it may sound cliché – this too shall pass.
You have a very strong person looking over your shoulder right now – your mother. You’ve inherited her compassion, wit, and humor. And I am sure she would tell you it is ok to let go of the comfort zone of Sirius XM.
Honor your mother’s memory by doing something even greater. She knows you can, and so do I.
I know it is not easy. But when the dust has settled and when the pain has eased; you will be even more wise and self-assured because you have been through the hard times and have prevailed!
I wish you the very best of luck!
Amanda said it perfectly!! I’m looking forward to watching something better come along for you in maybe a bigger and better place and we will all say…I listened back when!!
You are entitled to wallow. As you said things are changing for you and not by choice. Wallowing and having a pity party can only last so long.
it’s funny.I feel like you are one of my long distant friends. I keep forgetting that we are only radio acquaintances. I know a thing or two about adversity. My life has been turned on it’s ear. It’s not something I wish to talk about publicly but if I were to have the opportunity to talk to you I could make you see how fortunate you are.
This shall pass my friend and you will move on. Trust me, you are still a lucky lady. I wish I could let you see that. You are not defined by your job. If you remember that you will be able to pull yourself out of this funk.Good Luck and feel better.
You’re the best Jenny. You’ve handled this crappy situation with class and dignity.
Wherever your path takes you, your fans will follow.
Although it mat be a bit uncomfortable for me personally if you go pro with the Vagina Whispering. 🙂
Love ya!
Phil
Change is like a gift. You learned new skills in radio and television. I sat back and listened to you become an entertainer. Not the entertainer that you dreamed of as a child, but the kind that “fit” you. You will find another place that feels right and soar again. With that said, get your narrow ass up and into the city and find a job, face it girl, you are not a suburban Mom anymore. <3 xo
I was an occasional listener on SiriusXM but became a regular fan of your show and Facebook page after you started appearing on Ron & Fez (and O&A). If you can handle those guys, you can handle whatever comes your way. I am a mid-career executive in DC and in the throes of an [unfavorable] corporate restructuring. My fears about the future often get the best of me …. but I have a strong faith and know all be will whatever comes my way. I have also found comfort in listening to you share your own uncertainties BECAUSE you are someone that people wouldn’t think “needs to worry”. You are successful BECAUSE you care this much. Best of luck to you – we need more strong women like ourselves in the workforce.
Wow, your post moved me a bit. I can sort of feel what you are describing. I too hope very much that Sirius finds a place for you. Its not that you are just some voice on the radio. Many people feel like you are a sort of friend because they listen to you everyday, read your posts and enjoy interacting with you often.
I too am cautiously optimistic that Sirius/XM will find a new home for you that will feel like the old home 🙂
I am not going anywhere, I will continue to follow and support you as I am 100% positive many of your other fans will as well.
I will do what I can to step up huttaholics and get more people to help support you.
adam you are a love!!! xo.
Worst case scenario.. no more sirus.
You still have the internet at your disposal. Online is the new black !(?) There a so many entertainment platforms online now.. You could start your own online radio show, podcasts, web talk shows etc. You may not be making the MSO cash but I have a feeling its not about the money for you.
MSO = sirus. no idea why my iphone changed that lol
i changed it because i am employed by mso not sirius…lol. so i wont be making the mso cash.
Ohhh lol I was like “whaaat?” 🙂
OMG Jen…I also lay in my bed on a Sunday night wondering why my world is changing so much..against my will..trying to muster up the strength to start another Monday in a job I did not choose, but was chosen for me because my company screwed up and promoted me to a job that didn’t work out…so they placed me somewhere that does NOT satisfy me. I’ve said it before….reading your posts makes me feel a little less crazy….just feels like things will never be set right….but I’m sure they will…keep blogging girlfriend..it’s like free therapy!
oh patti!! thank you for getting it. things will turn around…
Just a follow up…so I’m reading your post to my hubby Monday morning…telling him how YOU get it…and perfectly articulated my feelings….even tearing up a bit…he never thought I was crazier than at that moment…and he is convinced I’m your stalker….because as much as we love them, sometimes only us gals “get it”! 🙂
Jesus Jenny! Whining? Playing the victim, AGAIN?!?!?! You say you realize that you have a privileged wealthy life and loving family and yet you STILL choose to publicy display your spoiled, self-indulgent emotional crap as if people care that you’re laying in bed sans drawers, crying like a big fatass lox!!!!
You were drummed out of the business, because without Alexis, YOU HAVE NO TALENT!!!! Next you’ll be crying with your head in the refrigerator and gaining back all the weight!!! Can you say pathetic? Can you say “I don’t realize how good I have it?”
It’s no wonder Alexis finally got sick of you and quit!!! WTF!!!
Helen,
I find it pathetic that you waste precious energy going to the web site of someone you don’t like just to say mean and hurtful things. You really need to get a life!
Happy Holidays Helen!
Sandy
well i would rather eat cupcakes or cookies. head in fridge doesnt appeal to me. thanks for the reminder tho. will be trying to get on the treadmill at 630am! also, and again i am probably repeating myself, but i don’t know why you even visit my site. so many other sites you can troll… be well! xo.
Jenny,
You have such a great sense of humor when dealing with the haters! You rock!!!
In June I had lap band surgery – I’m down 55lbs and still have much more to lose. When peeps say things to you about gaining your weight back I wanna smack them! You look awesome and you are an inspiration to us gals out there fighting the weight battle.
Keep smiling at the haters cuz it really pisses them off!!! <3
Sandy
People obviously care if she has thousands of fans. If she didn’t have talent how is it she managed to get through law school, practice as a lawyer, host her own TV show and radio show? Yeah. She sounds very talentless to me! As for the “weight” comment, it just shows how classless and ignorant you are. People criticize others because the see in themselves something they dislike, so you target her. If you had any really advice or criticism you wouldn’t be posting it with such crude and childish remarks. You Helen Wilcox are tacky and present yourself horribly. If you were my mother, friend, anything I would be totally ashamed of you. Do yourself a favor, attend an etiquette class.
Jenny, keep doing what you do. I do believe great things are ahead of you, just like the great things you’ve already accomplished. You need to keep in perspective that you’ve already accomplished so much. There is nothing wrong with striving for better opportunities, but make sure you take time to realize all of the amazing things you’ve already done. Who knows, maybe you could do some charity work? You are obviously good with people, so that would be amazing if you did. Look forward to seeing what your future has in store, and congratulations on all of your past success. I am a young 20 year old, so know your fans stretch far and wide! 🙂
is that not Kevin?
Unless it was O & A trying to help with pathos because they do say Jesus i think and are very rough at times, but maybe have a reverse psychology plan to help!
Jennifer is expressing her feelings like so many people do on Facebook or other social media. This is a bad period in our history and no one is immune to the effects which are being manifested to the country. There are some which may take comfort in learning that they are not alone in their similar circumstances.
Many of us fans have a personal connection to Jenny and feel the need to stick up for her like any friend would. I feel so compelled now as this mean spirited behavior is objectionable.
The hateful comments are unnecessary. I doubt Jennifer has done anything that would have affected you or your situation.
You mention Jesus but your language is far from being Christ like. Can’t you find it in the dark recesses of your heart to give this a rest until the holidays are over? If not I pity the emptiness which must engulf your life,
Helen, lick my ball bag you cunt nugget. You know you love Jennifer because if you didn’t, you wouldn’t take all the time to type in her website, read her blog, click comment, type your comment and submit it. It’s a desperate cry for you to seek Jennifer’s attention and guess what? She still doesn’t want to be your friend because you are not worth it. I’m assuming Helen Wilcox is not your real name but if it is you need to change it to Helen Needsmorecox.
And happy holidays to all, and all a goodnight……..
Oh please. It does not take a rocket scientist to figure out who “Helen” is. How many times have we heard the phrase “JESUS JENNIFER!!” when a certain someone was upset with Jenny??
Why don’t you do show on your local cable public access channel?
You could even do it from bed!!!
i love this idea! no idea how id do it. bed thing is funny.
I wasn’t joking, if you’re pissed off or upset, you just do the show from bed, your guest gets in bed with you and you have a party or eat and talk. You could have some hot looking guy bring you cocktails or smooothies while you chat.
Call it “Taking it out on the sheets with Jenny!”
You is smart. You is kind. You is important. You are also too funny & entertaining to not be heard on some format, somewhere. And we’ll all be there to enjoy the ride with you.
And you is also supposed to be on the toilet outside. Now gitt before I make my special chocolate pie for you!
I don’t think it is ridiculous (and indulgent!) to feel the way you do AT ALL! The ones that think it is are the ones that just see you as a priveleged NS LI girl. Those who have taken the time to listen to you over the past 6 years (& especially the last 6 months) know that you are so much more. You are a people person who has sooo connected with this faceless group of fans, you care about us & our well being, you thrive on the attention & love that we all feel for you. You’ve reinvented yourself & the whole show & of course your are going to be sad. But you know yourself & you are already on the road to recovery. So many people wouldn’t even realize all the things you do about yourself. So wise that you realize that you just need to process all this & then you will land on your feet (or boots, hahahaha).
I will try to call in all this week. I will miss you & your show so much, you have no idea. Maybe I’ll even change my lunch hour if you land a gig in the afternoon, that’s an idea. I know I’ll survive too. I had change but looking back on every time it’s happened, I’ve always made it through & was better for it. Love you & everything that you are. xoxo kk?
thanks barbie girl. xo.
Just make sure you come back and visit R&F. Despite whatever Fez was/is going through you were a great sit in with the boys. The day you brought in baked blueberry goods? Wow, I was laughing so hard.
i will always love those guys and happy to stop by their show anytime!
OMG! I had no idea that you were leaving. I saw your post on FB and clicked the link to see what was bothering you. Now I am in mourning. I have listened to you for so long you are like a friend. My daughter and I try to imitate your cool NY accent all the time. I am just devastated but I know that you will find the next cool chapter in your life and all your fans will be there to watch. Just know that you touched so many of us. You were always so kind to callers even if they had a different viewpoint than your own. You are simple stated, one neat chick! Please keep us posted.
Oh and ignore Helen. That kind of mean, vicious hatred is always followed by karma. People like that are miserable human beings. You were the one that brought me back to the show over and over. Be proud that you are a wonderful person with values.
Hey, Jenny– So sorry to see the end of your show. You were great with Alexis and you are great now. I hope Sirius/XM finds a new channel for you, your show, and team!!! If not, you are correct in that your fans can access you via your Web site, Facebook, and Twitter until something is worked out. Have a great trip.
Always love hearing you spar with Ron and Fez
PLEASE…. Just don’t let Lilly lose another job!! Poor girl survived R&F, then Wease, finally to land with you, and……
You are doing the right thing – you have to mourn the loss of your show and the loss of you friendship with Alexis. You wouldn’t be truthful to yourself if you didn’t allow yourself sad about losing things you cared about.
I’ve been listening since the start, and will really miss Whatever being part of my day. You’ve been like a friend on the radio, where I really felt like I was riding along with a girlfriend. I know you’ll find your place. There have been so many changes along the way, and you’ve come through those like a champ. I am sure you’ll come through this one too. Anyone who says they love change is a dirty liar, but we all come out the other side. Wishing you peace, now and in the new year!
Is going back to being a Long Island housewife really that bad? I’ve never understood why you chase fame this way?
the potential recognition would only be fun because it makes me feel like people appreciate the job I’m doing. I love being a mom and a wife but I also get tremendous fulfillment from working and I don’t want to give that up.
Then go volunteer your time at a homeless shelter or something equally beneficial!!!
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Will miss the show!!!
All the very best for ‘whatever’ the future holds.
Mazel Tov on your son’s Bar Mitzvah.
If you weren’t Jewish, you would be focusing on Christmas and Jesus instead of crying in your beer over a really unprofessional radio show.
Egads you are one nasty skank, Do you really think anyone wants to see your giant granny panties? Or that anyone is anything but grossed out at the thought of what you wear (or don’t) to bed???? Yeeccccccch!
Nasty, gnarly, gnarls.
Oh Jenny, I can’t believe your show is ending. Any idea why it happened? PLEASE let everyone know where we can find you next.
Hey Jenny…. I know you are going through a whole lot of emotions at one time. That’s healthy. Feel it and then let it go. Get through that tunnel and come out on the side of the light. I am not sure what that statement means that ‘if you weren’t Jewish’ means – it’s kinds of mindless. Jesus WAS a Jew! Without the Jewish people, there would be no christians and I am not sure the person who wrote that is a christian. You will be missed by me, because I can only listen during drive home time, but I wish you the very best!! Mazel Tov on your son’s Bar Mitzvah, too.
I was trying to figure out what Beth O was talking about. Is she saying that you have an unprofessional show because you are Jewish? Whatever she is saying makes no sense.
Me thinks Beth and Todd are the same person. Mean, hateful and childish.
If he/ she hates you so much why oh why are they here so much.