Today started off like most days. I woke up cranky, tired and consumed with worry about nothing of actual importance.
I was NOT thinking about whether or not my kids would make it through the day.
Some mornings I do get pangs of that kind of worry. But when I do, I go through my checklist of reasons why THAT kind of worry is irrational. And in doing so, I dismiss it.
But now I am all mixed up. We are all mixed up.
And so damn sad.
My heart is broken for those parents who’s kids did not make it through the day.
oh gd. what gd.
Tonight I will be live on the air again at 7pm on siriusxm stars 107- hopefully giving you (and me) a place to vent, grieve, talk and just be together.
xo
Jenny
I couldn’t leave work to run to my kids, but I texted their teachers and had them hug my kids hard and tell them I love them. They are so little and innocent. No words, just the worst. I was happy to hear you on the radio – I need that time to connect with others as shaken by the tragedy, even if it’s just connecting by listening to them.
My two 15 month old twins are safe in their cribs napping, and I can’t even imagine what those poor parents are going thru right now….unimaginable. What a coward.
My Partner said it so eloquently:
Kenneth R Ryan The sorrow and pain of a senseless act of violence like this seems always too terrible to bear. It is at times like this that I find it hardest to remember that the world is truly filled with kind, generous caring people who are repulsed and horrified by reckless, selfish and violent acts. Those people are by far the greater power. Although even so, sadly not powerful enough to repair the damage caused by that tiny, yet unbearably destructive few. Life, and those we love, even those we do not “know”, are gifts beyond measure. I do know this, but… it is a tragically hard day. Well said my love.
I’ll be listening