My 21st birthday, 1991.
I miss her voice.
I miss her skin.
I miss her scent.
I miss the comfort of knowing she was there if I needed her.
She was there when I needed her.
I still need her.
I miss my mom every day.
But this time of year, with her birthday today and mine around the bend, the longing for her is intense.
My body just can’t shake it.
It feels like she just died.
Ten birthdays means I am approaching ten years without my mom.
And sometimes I feel so tired.
But I am ok. I am better than ok. I am so ok that I am surprised consistently just how ok I am.
I feel like I have so much left in me to do.
And then I think,
Did she feel the same way at my age?
It doesn’t matter.
My birthday gift to my mom is to honor her by my being even more.
I will do more, I will give more, and I will love more.
(And mom, if you’re reading this somewhere, don’t worry, I will make sure to stay thin, get manicures, have my hair done, and fix all bottoms of my shoes.)
Happy birthday Mommy!
I love you forever.
This is so hard to read…but I needed to read it!!! This past December 5th marked 2 yrs without my Mom (January 9th marked 12 yrs without my Dad) Hugs to you!!!!
I met your mother a couple of times and know this. There are people who light up a room, and your mom was one. My mom and your mom’s mutual friend Holly brought tgem together one night. My mom called Holly’s house and your mom picked up the phone. Who is this, my mother said. “It’s Bunny, who is this?” “Cammie D,” my mother said. “Get over here now,” your mother said. And that was that. As my mother said, “ She was my kind of woman.” Funny, fierce, and lived large. I think she would be so proud of you and your show on so many levels!
Happy birthday Mrs K. I am so sorry I never came back to work for you, but you always knew you were in my heart. As you showed that to me on 9/11 when I called to check on you and the family and all you could do is cry that horrible morning.
I can relate as well. Lost my mom only 18 months ago. I went into my old voicemails to hear her voice today, only to find they were all gone. Made me so sad.
This is beautiful and so heartfelt. I have the same feelings about my mom and can completely relate. She was diagnosed with Pancreatic Cancer 3 weeks after losing our dad. She fought the good fight for 9 months. It has been 11 years and I miss her as much today. There is no love like the unconditional love of a mom.
I just read your beautiful words, always listen to your radio show and find sooo many similarities, from being called “tante” to my nieces and nephews to the loss of my mom at such an early age .. my mom was an amazing holocaust survivor , that deserved a longer life.. it has been 28 years and I could still cry instantly over the feelings you wrote about. I too, named my jewelry business after my mom (ida’sCharms) as my sister and I were her charms and gift for surviving.. Because I named my business after her as you did your mom, I get to speak and say her name every single day, and love it!! You will find that such a blessing.. thanks for sharing your beautiful, meaningful words !!
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I miss my mom
She was 37
I was 13
I was with her .. too much
When I turned 37 I thought I would die ,
I held my breath most of the year
I couldn’t believe how young I was
It was and is so damn unfair .
Hugs Jenny
I understand your pain..
My deepest condolences
mo’