omg. i am sorry that my "catty" post re: dr. douchebag has caused people to question whether i am handling my mother’s illness with pride and dignity… i am really doing the best i can- which includes moments of heightened sensitivity to other’s behavior/looks around me. i see people and i am sensitive to what i think is their essence… of course i don’t know whether the dr. was an ahole but his attitude took me there- well that coupled with my heightened sensitivity took me there.
hard to have an extra high level of grace and dignity right now when my mother has pancreatic cancer and subsequently it seems cancer cachexia… and i’ve been sitting in the hospital for the past 20 days. and it’s all i can do right now to not scream.
geez. a little levity…a little obnoxiousness, a little whatever gets me through the day…
and no, i don’t think i am the only one who has gone through this- g-d no! in fact if anything i feel more empathetic for those who been down this road before (this road that actually resembles a freakin’ emotional rollercoaster)… because i know how much it sucks…i mean it really sucks.
so there you have it. again…sorry to have offended even one of you.
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