im constantly reminded a. how human i am, b. what a constant struggle this weight management thing is…which is why i get so furious when anyone tries to assert that i am JUST self absorbed…
don’t get me wrong, i am obsessed with self like everyone else..but the weight component is purely for self preservation. i cannot get fat again. i wont allow it. i will stay crazy. and that is ok!
this morning the scale was a friend. post ovulatory… period 13 days away. and number was where is should be. not too high, not scary low. just normal. and then i ate like an animal.
breakfast:
coffee and soy milk (start strong)
snack: too much chocolate candy and a lollipop
lunch: cottage cheese, apple butter, raisins,
dinner: chicken and broccoli in brown sauce (reasonable serving size and not battered) and white rice (probably a cup)
dessert:
2 cookies.
overall too many calories. more than i should have eaten. chock full of self loathing and reflection tonight.
oh and no time to exercise today.
it is ok! some days are just this way. hope yours was SIGNIFICANTLY better!
xo
jenny
I find it interesting that you have coffee and soy milk for breakfast. I’m a life long weight struggler as well, but I can’t fathom not having food for breakfast with the coffee
Ps.Love you and don’t have sat radio and miss your tv shows!!!!
I couldn’t possibly skip breakfast. I would be too ravenous by lunch and would eat too much. I do best by eating smaller, more frequent “meals”. I think it helps to keep metabolism up.
Your allowed to have those days every now and then.. dont be so hard on yourself.. 😀 Much love..
Love you Jenny! But I am appalled by your eating habits. Your meals are not meals. A chocolate for dinner? I don’t think you’re eating enough calories in a day! Your body is probably in starvation mode which will lower your metabolism. I understand the battle…I am currently a good 20 lbs overweight and can’t seem to get the scale to move. So perhaps I should eat a mere chocolate for dinner. But I have 2 daughters watching me and I don’t want my battles to become theirs! So they will see mom partaking of the meals in a normal fashion.And kids need to know what constitutes a “meal” . Love yourself and be good to yourself. Fuel yourself better! h